Some days are easier than others, you know? Sometimes I go days without thinking about you, maybe even weeks. But there are always those days. You know the days I’m talking about. The days where you go out, and bits of pieces of the places you go remind you of that person. Just one memory, one thought of you, sends my world spiraling down into a place I long to keep hidden. Every time I close my eyes your face appears…it’s like we’ve never been apart. I remember the details, of your soft brown eyes, and long eye lashes, the ones I used to tease you for. That crooked smile you have, mouth full of braces, making me adore you even more. I shake myself to get rid of these memories, but it’s not that easy. When I open my eyes there’s an emptiness that I’m left with. It’s just a horrid feeling…because you don’t know whether to shout or cry, or throw your fists into a nearby wall. There’s so much feeling and passion inside you, but your body won’t let you release any of it out. So you’re left there, clutching at a pillow to your stomach, wanting so much to cry, but it just won’t happen. All you want is to fall asleep, but you know once you’ve closed your eyes, he will consume you. These days come without warning.
They are only on some days, though.